SUNOG! SUNOG!

There are lots of things running in my mind lately and i dont know where to start....

kaya simulan ko nalang sa sunog malapit sa amin kahapon...... several houses were burning (like 4 house/lots away from our home...) it was a big fire and may end up burning the whole block in minutes if firemens (*** LOL! bobo firemens amp XD natawa ako kaya di ko na edit yan XD) didnt came on time...

I was sleeping at that time actually, nagising lang ako dahil tinatawagan ako ni ate kasi pauwi na sya at nakita nya na may makapal na usok... akala nya bahay na namin yung nasusunog... pag gising ko sumilip ako sa bintana.. I saw lots of people running and yelling in the street like everyone is in panic mode..... but me... i didnt even bothered going out to check who's house is burning or even thought of helping to put out the fire... to cut the long story short.... di na ako naki usisa sa sunog at nanuod nalang ako ng TV at kumain

then questions started popping in my head.... mali ba yung ginawa ko? paano pag ako kaya ang nasunugan may tutulong kaya sakin? ano ba dapat talaga ginawa ko?...... then after few minutes of silence i started pondering things.... naisip ko na parang wala namang mali sa ginawa ko.... una, it wouldnt make a difference kung andun ako at nakisama sa mga nag uusisa... pangalawa, pag nagpunta ako dun sa sunog malamang makasagabal lang ako sa mga bombero which made me think na mas tama pa ata ang ginawa ko kesa sa mga taong nagpunta doon... pangatlo, knowing my self... im not the person that would try to do something heroic.... and lastly... paano kaya pag ako ang nasunugan? mag tutulong kaya sa akin?... after balancing circumstances... i was still comforted by the fact that few people think as radical as me (im not saying its a good thing and something to consider superior over others)

---- a similar scenario happened in school actually... i was in 4th year college... I was inside the school when the "magic bell" rang and classes were suspended and the guards closed the gates of the school and some students (including me) were stranded inside the school. Activists started filling up outside the gates of PUP and they are trying to make their way in (if my memory serves me right, this happened because of Jun Lozada's visit to PUP) everyone is in panic and activists are shaking the gates and tried pushing it....... as for me..... i decided to have a coffee in the coffee house neer the gates of PUP... i was sitting their sipping my hot coffee, eating nachos and watching people doing their stuffs... no one was inside the coffee house besides me and the cashier..... and then the cashier asked me... "bakit di ka nakisama dun sa mga estudyante?" and i replied "kuya, mas masarap kumain at mag kape kesa mag welga".... but actually.. i just didnt want to put myself in a position wherein i could be in harms way for something that is not in my top priorities of things that i really do care about

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and then i woke up this afternoon.... i started thinking again (this could be the effect of not having a decent sleep for 1 week)..... masama ba akong tao? (lolx as if i care if I am XD) do i need to change my principles? do i need to review my values?...... well maybe in due time..... as of now it is still working for me just fine and im planning to stick with it unless circumstances force me to change XD